Currently

Outside my window...  it's dark. It's been another night of little sleep. It's time to call another doctor and get an appointment. Ours used to be good, but he's changed and has been less than helpful for a while now.

I'm thinking...  a lot about the letter that came from my newly discovered sister. It feels so weird to think of having siblings after a lifetime of being an only child. Part of me is excited and wants to meet her and my brothers. Part of me wishes it would all just go back the way it was. I'm sure they are going to want to tell me about our shared parent and I'm not sure how I'm going to take hearing what a wonderful father he was to them. I'm also a little concerned about how we will get on as the little bit of snooping I've done on them since learning their names has shown them to be pretty liberal in their thinking and I am pretty much the opposite of that.

I am thankful...  we got the yard cleaned up yesterday. Tim is always bring leftover materials home from work, but he usually doesn't take the time to find ways to store them neatly...or more importantly to me, out of sight. He stacks stuff on his trailer in the driveway or along the back of the house or around the shed. It drives me nuts! Anyway, he finally admitted the house was looking like a bunch of hillbillies live here and spent most of yesterday getting stuff put away and then mowing down the weeds and grass that had grown up around and through it all. HUGE difference!

I am loving...  having a tiny baby to hold and love again. At least when her big brother doesn't want all my attention. (We are still a bit jealous.)

I am feeling...  for some reason, very aware of how quickly time is passing. I want it to slow down! Oh, and tired...it's that whole no sleep thing. 

I am celebrating...  my birthday this week. Mom and I share the day. On Thursday we are going out for dinner at a Turkish restaurant with Mom and John to celebrate. Mom will be 75 and I will be 55. Good grief, where has the time gone???

In the garden...  the tomato plants are dying of blight and big nasty caterpillars are eating the Catalpa tree leaves and pooping all over the place. I think I've identified the caterpillars as ones that are common in the south and eat Catalpa leaves almost exclusively. Not sure how to get rid of them.

I am hoping...  that Tim learned something from our vacation. He hasn't had time off like that for a long time and I know he had a hard time relaxing and having fun. The man really doesn't remember how to "play." He keeps saying he enjoyed it, so I'm hoping he will want to make more time to relax.

Today's weather...  sunny and 86 degrees without humidity.

A final thought...