August 12, 2019

Currently

Outside my window...  it's dark. It's been another night of little sleep. It's time to call another doctor and get an appointment. Ours used to be good, but he's changed and has been less than helpful for a while now.

I'm thinking...  a lot about the letter that came from my newly discovered sister. It feels so weird to think of having siblings after a lifetime of being an only child. Part of me is excited and wants to meet her and my brothers. Part of me wishes it would all just go back the way it was. I'm sure they are going to want to tell me about our shared parent and I'm not sure how I'm going to take hearing what a wonderful father he was to them. I'm also a little concerned about how we will get on as the little bit of snooping I've done on them since learning their names has shown them to be pretty liberal in their thinking and I am pretty much the opposite of that.

I am thankful...  we got the yard cleaned up yesterday. Tim is always bring leftover materials home from work, but he usually doesn't take the time to find ways to store them neatly...or more importantly to me, out of sight. He stacks stuff on his trailer in the driveway or along the back of the house or around the shed. It drives me nuts! Anyway, he finally admitted the house was looking like a bunch of hillbillies live here and spent most of yesterday getting stuff put away and then mowing down the weeds and grass that had grown up around and through it all. HUGE difference!

I am loving...  having a tiny baby to hold and love again. At least when her big brother doesn't want all my attention. (We are still a bit jealous.)




I am feeling...  for some reason, very aware of how quickly time is passing. I want it to slow down! Oh, and tired...it's that whole no sleep thing. 

I am celebrating...  my birthday this week. Mom and I share the day. On Thursday we are going out for dinner at a Turkish restaurant with Mom and John to celebrate. Mom will be 75 and I will be 55. Good grief, where has the time gone???

In the garden...  the tomato plants are dying of blight and big nasty caterpillars are eating the Catalpa tree leaves and pooping all over the place. I think I've identified the caterpillars as ones that are common in the south and eat Catalpa leaves almost exclusively. Not sure how to get rid of them.

I am hoping...  that Tim learned something from our vacation. He hasn't had time off like that for a long time and I know he had a hard time relaxing and having fun. The man really doesn't remember how to "play." He keeps saying he enjoyed it, so I'm hoping he will want to make more time to relax.


Today's weather...  sunny and 86 degrees without humidity.

A final thought...


12 comments:

  1. LOL I almost spat out my coffee on the Minion gif, LOLOL. I just saw the same thing and I was going to post it, great minds, wink.

    Very lovely photo of you and your husband. My husband is the opposite of yours; and I am like your husband. I don't know how to relax. AND thanks, I have a "pack rat" too (I call him that--I swear, where does he find the things he does? grin).

    I hear you on the sleep and tired issues...and the dr. issues. I have a very pushy dr. and enough is enough. I'll be 53 in March and I agree, where has the time gone?

    A very Happy Birthday to you. smiles

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    1. You live with a pack rat? Oh, you poor woman! ;) I grew up in a family that never throws anything away. Seriously. My grandparents, my mom, my aunts...they aren't exactly hoarders, but if you ever need something you can bet it's in their house somewhere. I admit that does come in handy since I live beside my mother. Me? I have more stuff than I need, but I also purge the collection from time to time. My family thinks I'm genetically deficient and I get lectured all the time about not getting rid of stuff.

      You and my husband need to learn to relax. Life is too short to work ALL the time! I hope you don't miss as many special moments as he does.

      Thanks for the birthday wishes!

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  2. Sorry about your sleeping problems. I was like that until my doctor put me on new high blood pressure medicine. I take it at night because within an hour I am fast asleep and sleeping for 9 hours or more.

    My husband holds onto things too -- but in the house not outside. I'm so sick of the clutter and am making a big effort to get rid of things.

    Happy birthday! I hope you (and your mom) have a wonderful day.

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    1. I'm glad your medicine is working out so well for you. I don't have time to sleep 9 hours a night, but 6 would be an improvement. I'm already on a blood pressure med and my bp has been fantastic so I doubt they'll mess with it.

      In the house, the clutter is more from me than him. I might have a tiny book problem. :)

      Thank you for the birthday wishes!

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  3. My husband doesnt know what relaxing is either. I do think its a lost generation though. I think todays is WAYYY too much about relaxing & playing - we need a middle ground.
    you forget how small those babies are!!!
    Oh wow - you found your siblings!!! That's interesting! Cant wait to see how that goes!

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    1. I agree with you about today's generation...not many of them have a work ethic at all! I could live with something in the middle.

      I didn't find the siblings, they found me. I asked my son not to contact the DNA matches on Ancestry. I said if they contacted us, then I'd think about it. They went way beyond that!

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  4. You raise a good point about your near-siblings' political leanings. Perhaps a good idea from the outset, to disallow any talk of politics? (Like the understanding my BF and I have.)
    That's pretty cool about you and your mom sharing a birthday. Happy birthday blessings!

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    1. Yes, that might be a good rule to establish when the time comes because I did a little "creeping" on the brother's FB page and my only thought was "oh boy, this isn't going to be easy."

      Thanks for the birthday wishes!

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  5. I really can't even imagine your emotions about finding a long-lost father and siblings. I guess meeting them once could satisfy some curiosity and perhaps a close relationship doesn't have to develop after that. It will be interesting and thank you for sharing your journey and feelings. That little granddaughter is adorable, Stacy. Happy birthday to you and your mom!! Pretty awesome that you share your birth-date with her!! Enjoy your celebration with her!

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    1. Thank you for the thoughtful input. I will keep posting about the family thing as it unfolds. I had already decided to do that as this seems to be more and more common in today's world. Both Ancestry and 23 and Me have developed huge departments to counsel people who find themselves suddenly in my shoes due to DNA results. Good or bad, it is tough to maintain deep, dark family secrets in today's world.

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  6. Oh, man, I can so relate to the sleep issues! here's to us both getting a good night's sleep!

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    1. I have found I do a little better if I take an allergy pill, Tylenol, and one over-the-counter sleeping pill just before I go to bed.

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